simplyinlove

2012-01-21T12:59:00.001+08:00

i miss you.

i want you.

i need you.

but you have moved on..

and surprisingly i want to wish you all the best and last long.but no matter what i will be here waiting for you and be here for you if you need me.

maybe it looks weird that a girl who likes you is wishing for you and pushing you to another girl.but i dont care how people see it as.its all from the bottom of my heart.though it hurts to be kept in the dark by you that you guys have patched and that i see things that aren't suitable for me to see.i will still be strong.cause what had happen cant be changed.

i love you <3

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forgive and forget

2012-01-08T23:58:00.001+08:00

I should have known.

I should have given up sooner.

Ishouldnt have.gave too much hope.

I shouldnt have been so dumb.

I shouldnt be so weak,i have promised to be stronger didnt i?

forgive and forget and move on.

be more steady and dont get touched easily..

hope this will be the last time i cry for guys.shall be happy and start smiling :)

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I love you..

2011-12-27T18:05:00.001+08:00

Though we were not even together.

I would still like to thank you for the memories you gave me.

I dont even know should I regret saying the answer earlier..

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me or you?

2011-12-26T23:05:00.001+08:00

is it me that is being paranoid or you are acting weird?

i can feel that som things have changed since that day..

waiting..

2011-12-26T19:33:00.002+08:00

I would like to make a long post today..

Like i mention things have changed and i hope it would

be towards the better future.

Yup,I admit that i am having the things i hoped for

however i tend to always ruin it in my own hands :(

The feeling sucks.

All started with me being easily touched by things done

and that i cant stand strongly on my stand,

keeping myself steady.Resulting in having myself hurt.

I really hope things will go well once in my life for me.

I feel like a dumb ass falling deep into a trap

that i shouldn't even fall into in the first place.

Kind of make me feel useless.Making me feel so dumb

for believing in things that make me cry.

I am not that strong after all.

I am just a normal girl that is afraid of being alone.

A girl that hope for everything in life to be nice and

not too perfect as they are just fake.

To also find a guy that is trustworthy and reliable..

I only hope to be the only girl in that only guy eyes.

A girl that that can be loved and protected.

I realised that nothing in this world can be perfect.

Neither am i a perfect girl.

This does not give you a reaon to hurt and play with me..

Life that needs to go on.

2011-12-19T01:22:00.001+08:00

Things have changed but not only for me.

Hope that this change have made everyone's life better.

I would like to be loved by someone but having to love someone is what im afraid of.

Afraid of getting hurt.afraid of having the history to repeat itself.and so many more.

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Waiting for that day.

2011-12-01T05:20:00.001+08:00

I miss your hug.

I miss how you talk to me.

I miss how we used to message.

I miss how we use to online every night to talk to each other.

I miss how we use to go out.

I'm am so afraid that things might change the next moment.I will wait for you to come back and hope that everything doesn't change.feelings won't fade or what so ever.left a month only,I will work hard waiting hope you will do so too...

aku kangen kamu.

aku sayang kamu.

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flashbacks

2011-11-25T14:54:00.001+08:00

I remember i was told by you that you won't ever leave me.but now all i have is that you left me fast and you moved on fast.real faster than me.

I Dont even know do you still have ny thought of me like i had for You..

I have tried hard enough to move on but i Dont know why you are still on my mind!

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a small update

2011-11-23T02:25:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since i have blogged.
Reading back the posts i posted last time.i realised how childish and lame i was.

Anw ,maybe things have happened.i can't hope that time will turn back cause i know it can't.
I also cant regret things.cause what have been done is done.

So i just wish from now onwards things will turn for a better.

Dont feel like blogging much.bye~

16/10

2011-10-16T15:21:00.000+08:00

Today is the day i grow another year older.
I thought this birthday you will be able to celebrate with me.However,things just happen this way,nothing can be done to change it.I won't do anything to destroy your relationship with her.I want you to realise it yourself that i have never wronged her.I'm just afraid even after you realise you won't be back by my side.
Yesterday when i saw you with her at nex.My heart was beating fast.My mind was in a mess.I wasn't sure about what i should do.I wanted to run up to you cry in your arms telling you how much i love you,miss you and how i'm going to be here waiting silently for you..
I guess the photos we took together you have deleted them and that you don't even remember me..
But now i only wish you will be wishing me happy birthday only and nothing much.

Failure...Failure...

2011-09-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

God...things just happen so fast that i don't even know what came into my life and what left my life.
I just wanted everything to be simple and nice.and it ended up the way i don't wish it had.
It fucking hurts.to the extend that i can't even cry.it makes me forget everything.like a newborn baby knowing nothing of the world.minds blank everything is just not in place.i'm just held back by the memories.i just got to stop it one day.now just have to tell myself everything will be fine one day and will find someone more amazing and things...faking smile and laughter..

hearts

2011-08-29T09:01:00.005+08:00

Many things happen and this things aren't just normal.They are things in life you never expect and the happiness you feel is just so amazing <3 However life never will be 100% perfect,so only some people will know what the hell have happen,and this totally sucks a hell lot.So much fr being a dumb emille :)

somehow...

2011-08-09T13:57:00.002+08:00

somehow nobody will understand how i feel...
somehow whatever i do is something wrong...
somehow things i do will always make someone unhappy.

i just hope how much i can be having someone else life...
but as you put too much hope into somethings,
things will never happen instead it will turn out to be
things you do not wish to happen...

if only somebody knows how i feel...

right choices are hard to find...

2011-08-08T16:18:00.002+08:00

If only i could turn back the time.

I know that i am greedy but i just cant afford to

lose things at this moment.I only hope that from

today onwards i am making the right choices in my life...

be positive ^^

2011-08-05T19:01:00.002+08:00

Lot's of things have happened for this whole week and
I don't understand why whatever i do people tend to
suspect and misunderstood them :(

Anyway i think-THINK-that i starting to be myself

again.To who i was before i met him.Isn't it just great! ^^

This week quite a number of changes have been

made in different people's life and i hope that

this changes would make this people's life better.

Anyway,best wishes to everyone for anything they

will be doing in their life ( loads of luck ) :D

Do i deserve it?

2011-07-30T17:11:00.001+08:00

I'm kind of like worried that you be tired for the day so i did not call you.In the end,you slept late because you were talking to other girls....This is always what i get,yeah...

misses

2011-07-30T12:12:00.001+08:00

missing you~

miss the hugs you give me.

miss the kisses we have.

miss the times we hold hand.

miss the times we spent together.

miss the movies we watch.

miss the things we do.

hope you are missing the way i miss you <3

cycle everyone going through

2011-07-26T18:06:00.001+08:00

Is this what we have to go through?

I have been hurt deeply and i hope you

would not do the same...

We will see how long this goes~

JIAYOU :D

2011-07-26T09:21:00.002+08:00

I will treat it as nothing have ever happen before.

I must perserve!

EMILLE JIAYOU I BELIEVE YOU CAN DO IT ^^

Loving you ~

2011-07-25T18:51:00.002+08:00

my mum made me bai gao xing yi chang :(
she saw sharon post and tell me then she never
say it properly then i mistook it that it is me :(

anw many things have happened...
and i just cant help to know that i am obviously
have no faith in myself not you,but still at times
i just cant help missing you <3 ILOVEYOU.

Wreck your life off~

2011-07-17T19:34:00.002+08:00

This help's to explain what i am doing to you right now.

I will sit back enjoy and relax to see what is

going to happen to your life in the future.

CHEAP(OH)

2011-07-16T14:20:00.002+08:00

so many stories that have been heard,and never expect some girls in this world is so BITCH and CHEAP!!!!You did not expect anyone to know about the ugly things you have done,but domehow things that have been done is not only you are involve but there are also other people.I am disgusted by YOU and somehow those who are CHEAP.

2011-07-09T16:48:00.001+08:00

somehow i feel like a idiot right now...

someone who need not be here in this world.

What is going on?

2011-07-09T16:41:00.002+08:00

I don't understand what is going on in my life right now!

I feel so left out from socialising.It is like leaving me further and further.

I want my old life back where i have thing that i

want and that i am just so satisfied with things there.

Now...i feel like i am just going to get crazy soon.I hate myself for knowing

the wrong people,trusting people who should not

be trusted.I hate them as much as i hate myself.

I hate myself for being born in this world where i only know how to feel

miserable.where things could have been very simple that i could be happy.

Damn you bitch!

2011-06-28T22:45:00.001+08:00

Why in the world is there a bitch like you?
If you want to treat me like this,beware of karma!
Want to turn my life upside down just cause yours
Is upside duh eu?FUCKING BITCH!one day you
Will just regret,better watch out,bitch!

change to be a positive person and things will change !

2011-06-26T18:21:00.004+08:00

things have changed and turned for the better...
can say i have turn to become a more cheerful person.
my goal is to study psychology and have it as a job :D
i have did things that suppose to be done long time ago.
and have better things waiting for me now and am i suppose to accept them?
hmm let me consider it further cause i dont want to turn back to things i have done in the past...

aisini ^^

So sorry I am really sorry terribly sorry.

2011-03-26T18:57:00.003+08:00

I'm so sorry to my friend Shirleen tan.so sort about everything I did not meant to cause you trouble.I can I will turn back to time and stop myself from repeating the mistakes.many apologies.I am really will do anything for your forgiveness.

gth

2011-03-20T17:21:00.003+08:00

i know everything meant well for me but please i am a human.do you even need to restrict me to the end where you need to restrict what friends i made and what type of book i read?i want my damn life back.gth.

A shoulder to lean on

2011-03-16T20:50:00.003+08:00

I just need a shoulder for me to lean on and let me cry out loud...

A shoulder to lean on

2011-03-16T20:50:00.001+08:00

I just need a shoulder for me to lean on and let me cry out loud...

smiles?

2011-03-15T17:07:00.002+08:00

i just don't know how to smile properly anymore...what is the proper smile that i ever have?how does it even feels like?love to know how i was and how much happiness i had las time...

你是否是我所在找的那个人。

2011-03-13T13:24:00.001+08:00

你是不是我所想要找的人？现在的我不知道我还向以前那么的爱你。。。

life exchange?

2011-03-10T16:38:00.002+08:00

i gave you all the trust i can give you and even more but why do you even want to take it for granted?all i get from you is always a pack of lies.you seem not getting tired of them,but sorry i am.

Anyway read julia's blog and saw how perfect her life can be.i really wishes to exchange? or even have the same life,it makes me jealous of it cause i don't see any perfectness in my life,i just saw what a pathetic life i have got down here.am i even suppose to deserve all this?i want to be free,i want a life...i want to be happy.

game that eventually have to come to an end

2011-03-08T15:50:00.003+08:00

i feel so much for you but do you feel the same?i miss you that much,do you even have that tiny little bit?i care for you like no one else business,do you even look at me?i want to hear your voice so much,afraid of losing you and everything.but do you even have me in your mind.i want to know why are you keeping me at your side when you don't even love or treasure me?whatever i do you are always not happy and all i get from you is that you do everything not to go to school and avoid me.is that what you want and love?if yes,i see no point of us continuing.i am not a toy and i am tired of this game...

broken heart

2011-03-06T16:43:00.000+08:00

i just realize....that all this while it's all one-sided love of mine...

FUCKER FUCK MY LIFE.

2011-03-04T21:20:00.002+08:00

FUCK MY LIFE.FUCKER JUST FUCK MY LIFE.DAMN THE DARN LIFE OF MINE NOW.HOW COOL TO SEE THAT FUCKING THING HAPPENING RIGHT BEFORE MY OWN EYES.HOW COOL.....FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKER FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!CCB KNN.WTH MAN FUCKER FUCK FUCKFUCK HOW TO RELAX WHEN THAT FUCKING THING HAPPEN RIGHT INFRONT OF ME.INFRONT OF ME.KKN CCB.

things that i can't say in your face....

2011-03-04T17:23:00.002+08:00

what if i fainted will you care will you be there for me?
when i need a shoulder to cry on,will you be the one there?
when i cry,will you comfort me?
when i needed a accompany,are you the one?
what if i'm chased out of house,will you be the on to spend the night out with me?
when i fall,will you be the one to pull me up?
when my heart break,will you mend it for me?
when my life is fucked up,will you be the one to cheer me on?

How many things i want to say to you....how many things i need you there for me...how many more things that i want you to know about me...all i wanted is you to know is that i love you and you only.i just need your trust ,my freedom,my fairness,and you to listen to my complain about the day.I know that i can'tturn back the time or neither can you turn back to your old self,the one that love me like no one else buisness,the one that care about me like i a fragile glass,the one that cheers me up when i cry,the one the holds on to me when i fall.i want to feel that love once again...not this hurtful things that break my heart time and time again.i want to stop crying i want to the happy and feeling blissful girl,i want to feel that i am the luckiest girl again.

i know that,even if i type all this,you won't/can't see.or even get fucked mad after reading scolding the hell out of me.i just hope you will get this into your mind....i want you to love me once again and not making use of me...

2011-02-25T16:18:00.001+08:00

what if i say....that i feel like dying and want to commit suicide now...will there be anyone to stop me and will there be anyone that will cry for me and even miss me and remember me?

time to det down to work!!!

2011-02-24T20:53:00.003+08:00

today is just another day that i find that i cant live normally.maybe not so exactly but yeah...time to start doing my own work :(( recently is all test but as usual i am always doing the last minute studying!bad eh?yeah so this time i changed seat maybe what mr fu say is right i maybe can concentrate more over there.since teacher and god have given me so many chance to stay in express and be here well and alive.i believe i can't let them down,so....EMILLE THAM WORK HARDER DONT BE SUCH A SLACKER FROM NOW ONWARDS.start by trying to stop copying work and doing them yourself and when you reach home don't only,use comp/watch tele/talk on phone or even message.I believe you can do it emille!have hope in yourself and do your best.YOU CAN DO IT ^^ try to be a cheerful girl from now :)

damn life during sickness

2011-02-22T20:32:00.002+08:00

just my life eh...how cool of adults to keep me studying even when i am not feeling well rather thinking that i would not bother studying no point keeping me right?is really not as if i will pay attention in class...FUCK MY LIFE.FUCKERS AND SUCKERS :@ DAMN YOU.

shit fuck life...

2011-02-21T13:27:00.002+08:00

many things have happen and why am i still here deciding?should i just head for the idea?should i believe that there is still love between us?i really hope i could turn back the time where i had everyhting i wanted and was living happily and not here hating my life...i think it's really time for me to build up my courage fast and decide to end this all at one go....everything now does not seem to going the way that i imagine.hoping for the best = everything getting and going worst....though i know i have my best friends and friends everything there for me,but i know that just how empty i am going to feel and how hurtful it's really going to be.to him,everything is alright cause all i can say he doesn't really love me but just making use of me...idk,i wouldn't dare to to accept the fact though i know is the truth the fucking hurts like shit.ANW...JUST SHIT FUCK MY LIFE.

valentine ruined.

2011-02-15T21:11:00.002+08:00

sunday was such a wonderful day where he was punctual and even bought build-a-bear close to what i hope to get.I was so happy and mad excited about sleeping together with the bear.All this happiness was ruined the next day.just next day,where he said he will pick me up in the morning and he did not come,it was alright i did not blame him as he said he need to visit a doc.afternoon,i hoped like hell he will be there at 3,i rushed straight out.knowing that once i never see him outside school gate,i will not get to see him and things...once i reached home,we quarrelled like some shitty ass and he totally just blown my heart off.I was really fucked up at the moment whereby i will just take the pen-knife and stab the bear like hell,i wont care how much it cost...i bet he wont be here in school today and he said he will.in the end i was the one who guessed correct.but at least he came to my house after 4?but...i feel shitty,idk why.just felt that way...

fucked up life

2011-02-09T17:10:00.002+08:00

saw few of our school teacher's photo's and realise they look awesome and they look pretty on their wedding day.which of course i am stating the obvious,who do not look pretty and sexy on their wedding day right?their relationships with their husband must be really great eh?look at mine...it seems pathetic...everyday,just seems so tiring to continue any further.anyone at the side have been like asking me to do the decision soon which is giving up is the easiest choice.but saying it is just so easy,doing it is just any life decision? every time it just makes me feel like really escaping to my dream and never wake up i really hate it here...i want the romantic and loving relationship and not just quarreling everyday which makes me really sick and tired.it's draining my energy off to hell.FUCKING PERFECT by pink really just suits my life well uh.everything everything....i want my damn fucked up life to stay the hell away from me.having a boyfriend like this now isn't a choice...i gave too many chances,i am just giving myself hopes and letting it to crush into pieces the next moment eh.i am really speechless.just hope i will be into a big coma not waking up and things and get away with this fucking world.FUCK YOU WORLD.

life is like hell

2011-01-28T21:14:00.002+08:00

it has been 11 days since i post on my blog...anw life and been a hell up and downs and now all i can say i have to learn to open up myself and be happier no use cropping my self down here and be pessimist about things and be a idiot.i am starting to studying by starting to do my homework myself and ask when i do not how to do and it has been a long time since i have use a computer longer then 15 mins other then the online tuition...anw life have been like shit if possible.stress is starting and everything.and about guzheng i am keen to go but i'm getting negative stuffs from the teacher just because i skipped 1 whole year last year even though i felt guilty and things for not going...sec 4 life is what i am afraid of facing and with the current situation of relationship i have now...all i want is to shut myself up someone and fall into a deep sleep...

is life a torture?

2011-01-17T17:43:00.003+08:00

it's been a long time since i came and post something on my blog and same goes to tumblr...ANW it is a new year with more stress and more work and tuition and things...actually have nothing much about studies and school but more about private life...i feel so stressed and fucked up i really just cannot take it anymore.i could have found a better person and be happier then i am now right and i just realise that i am quite an idiot to rely on someone to much.i am told by most people that i should just give up and things and i should just let it go.holding on and torture or hurting myself isn't helping anything in a relationship.maybe in the future and i look back i will realise that i am being so childish and stupid.i can like focus more on studies and be better in my future and things and stop torturing myself unnecessary.i should just be myself and get on with my life and find myself being happier?it is not as if anyone can confirm that we will last till we are old right.so maybe i should start considering about this and get myself on with life being happier....i should stop being so tired about this.being in love should be happy right?but at least we should talk things out but he just keep refusing so what am i suppose to do?i want to let go already i had had enough.this shouldn't be what i have....

TUMBLR ♥

2010-12-03T11:27:00.002+08:00

think i am addicted to tumblr!exploring everything!re-blogging everything♥

THINK I AM IN LOVE WITH TUMBLR ^^ IDK maybe soon i don't want to have a blog anymore?

haha.

anw blog a small part of myself.I feel that i am a selfish person....I am like the only one who

expect their boyfriend to return early....It's like he just went back there for less then 2 months

and i still want him to be back here with me...i think very soon i will give up.....

and i hate my mum!REALLY HATE HER!DAMN HER.LUCKY MY TONGUE IS STILL ATTACHED!IF NOT

I WILL DAMN SUE HER!I HATE YOU!I HAVE TOLERATE YOU ENOUGH.ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.I WILL

MOVE OUT WHEN I HAVE THE ABILITY I DAMN DON'T WANT TO STAY WITH SOMEONE LIKE

YOU!DAMN IT!YOU ARE THE ONE A WRONG AND YOU STILL THINK YOU ARE NOT!ASSHOLE.

decision made.

2010-11-30T19:57:00.002+08:00

i have said it out.....now it is getting clear in my mind of what i am thinking and what is my choice.Though i know i can't let it go as it has been 7 months+ and that i am not use to being single.Doing things on my own and having to be bored.Now what should i do?I have no more courage to reject but to agree to continue.Now i can only see what i can do along the way.Maybe fall back again but will just have myself hurt again and again.Even though i have been told not to let the same person stab you twice.

I have nothing else to post about,so i will stop here for now.

7 months?

2010-11-29T12:01:00.002+08:00

26 have passed....and i feel nothing special about it this month.....

it is just a day that pass normally with me and friends chatting,

doing work at home and things....anw days passed and i am still

getting sad and angry at things....it makes me feel tired....really

tired...one problem settled another problem comes up...anw

i don't know what to post now....so will just stop here.

3E3'10 gathering

2010-11-24T11:48:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was an awesome day ^^ met my lovely classmates again (:

really miss SHIRLN'S,LYNETTE,LIZ!not lemin (haha, joking :D)

Yesterday had tuition,then i rush to the circle then take to paya. to meet liz.

Then we went to bugis together to meet others.But when we came out saw

no one then thought we were late so they went first.liz call lyn,but she was still

on the mrt.then told us that some reached first already.so we contact them

and went to find them.THE FUNNIEST THING IS GATHERING OUTSIDE

TOILET!!!!LOL!!then we went to walk around.and then to SOEUL GARDEN

then we ate and play?? ( i think is me only -.-) took group photo outside then

went for neoprints with 17 people (awesome right) then MS YANI came ^^

then she treat the girls to neo. [THANKS MS YANI <3]>

HARRY POTTER (when i am suppose to go home already...) anw MS YANI

TREAT US AGAIN!!!THANKS MS YANI!!!YOU ARE SO KIND :D then when

the movie end,we took group photo.after that me and shirlyn went home and

the others dunno go where??

it's 2 more days....hope you can do what you promise...

3 days...

2010-11-22T12:01:00.003+08:00

this is the 3 and a half day without you....
during the first day when you are not arounf i tried posting but it seems my phone became a little faulty...

1st day:I send you to airport holding back my tears...Once we were outside the departyure hall,i could no longer hold back my tears any longer,i cried infront of you hoping you will tell me you would not go back and leave me here alone.i know it is impossible...then when you went into the departure hall,i left immediately as i did not want to cry any further infront of you.i wanted to barge into the departure hall and really fly with you back to your country.In the end i went to board the trains and went to meet up with my sis and grandparents to have lunch.On the way i thought about alot of things we have done together it is really unearable for me...It makes me feel like i am going to end my life any moment when you are not around...I waited the whole day anf when finally it is 10 at night.I hoped you will give me a call and tell me you have not left singapore...which i knew it is impossible too.Until 12,i still did not receive any call from you.I thought of all possible reasons that held you up to deceive myself that you will call me anytime...

2nd day:It is saturday and a woke up hoping there will be a miss call but....finally you message me at 10.54am i felt abit disappointed and abit happy that at least you message me...you told me you cant call me and things.you tell me ways that i can call you and kept asking me not to follow other guys.It makes me feel that you don,t trust me at all.I felt confuse the whole day...and i replied quite some upsetting things...the whole day you were outside and tell me that you cant call.Is there a possible reason that someone is able to go out and play and enjoy and have no time to contact a person for a mintue who have worried about you and things?and we end the day with you ALWAYS NOT REPLYING.

3rd day:i was happy that you mesage me at 2+ and in the early morning asking me to call you.I called but we only talked for awhile and you said that your grandmother is upset about you talking on the phone for FEW MINS.then you promise me you will call me on 26....then i tell you i am feeling not well.you just ask me take care of myself with a few message and ask got any guy message me or call me AGAIN!then you say at night you will chat with me and at night you did not chat with me at all but just keep asking did i chat with guy ANOTHER TIME AGAIN.

today....i will post next time bah (: dun wan to be too emotional :(

Life's hard...

2010-11-10T22:00:00.002+08:00

i am not even sure of what is going on in my mind.

who is there to help me sort it out?no one.it is only

me myself who is able to settle this things myself...

ANW I AM HAPPY WITH MY NEW SPECS!!YOU PEEPS DON'T GET JEALOUS ALRIGHT (: JK.I know my specs aren't something unique.
CAN'T WAIT FOR MY REPORT BOOK TO BE BACK TOO!!SO I CAN GET MY IPHONE!!!HOPE I PASS EVERYTHING!!!WISH ME LOADS OF LUCKS PLEASE ><

Life will be hard from now onwards.Have to slam the book in my face any moment now and then.I am exoected to study at least 5 hours a day or more during this holiday.Isn't it killing me?I have buck up on my english,then get back to the basic for every subject,attending online chinese lesson to buck up on my chinese and push it up to A1.I will live like a prisoner once i am back from holiday and that is the worst time that i want to kill myself!!!

Life's hard...we have to learn to fight with people to survive and learn to settle things on our own and even learn how to overcome the heart-breaking matter.

This holiday will be a killer.No computer to use.Handphone is like hard to get??You are not by my side (this is the worst thing that can happen)!!!Studying like siao!!Can't go out with friends...(hiahz)

I will go back to emoing now,bye people.

what is it?

2010-11-05T22:48:00.003+08:00

I just want to know when can I be special to you?when can I be the only one you see?when can I be treated nicely?When can I be loved by you?when?seriously when?it's just that you do not want people to snatch what you love from you then why don't you just treasure it?why?you are just making me feel like I am the only one in this relationship.is am the only who is there by myself.you don't love me at all.i feel nothing from you,nothing at all.i don't feel treasured by you. Then what is it between us now?i want to know...

broken heart fixing in progress

2010-10-15T19:54:00.003+08:00

things really happen quickly....

i miss those days...i really do....

thinking about them is only breaking myself

more then he did....he hurts at first....but

now all i left is jealousy.....its the remaining

thing to stop thinking about.But it isn't my

fault.is that bitch,she is really pissing me off.

Why don't she just get a normal girl life?

GET A LIFE MAN BITCH.

that B of yours dun wan you there is also no need

for you to flirt right?Don't you find

yourself dirty and disgusting?

ANW this awesome song cheered me up:

YOU ARE NOT SORRY

All this time I was wasting

Hoping you would come around

I've been giving out chances every time

And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long

Baby but I figured you out

And you're thinking we'll be fine again

But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can say that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did before

You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

Looking so innocent

I might believe you if I didn't know

Could've loved you all my life

If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets

And I'm tired of being last to know

And now you're asking me to listen

Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did before

You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You had me falling for you honey

And it never would've gone away, no

You used to shine so bright

But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did before

You're not sorry, no, no, oh

No, oh, no, oh, no oh

Whoa, no, no

bitchy girl -.-

2010-09-18T09:48:00.002+08:00

Did not even expect her to be bitchy.whatever lah.
kana caught by teacher her skirt still hope the cher
catch me.Too bad lah,the cher never see until me.
still say what : "once you say out like that,all the girls
already unfold." she is trying to point at me.wth lah.
dun wan be my friend still purposely trying to say
me.then still say "i dun wan say." wan purposely say
me then say lah.think i scared of you huh.please lah,
you very lame .

2 sided face....

2010-09-01T18:14:00.002+08:00

Why in this world is there such person with 2 sided face??
I don't hate them but it is just a disgrace for oneself.Isn't it?
Don't they find it disgusting?I am really curious of why are
they doing this.Is it so fun?For example:

A is best friend with B and C.Then when A isn't around,B
started to create romours and talk bad about A to C
"behind" her.Then when C isn't around,B did the same thing
but this time to A.

Anw i got to go soon,so bye peeps ....

things that i did not update.

2010-08-12T20:25:00.003+08:00

It has been 1month+ since i posted things on.

common tests are "long" over and have gotten back results

that can be surprising and bad.None other then usual my

english failed,this time i failed chemistry and ss too.

but surprisingly i got A2 for both geog(the most impossible sub)

and physics which i thought i would fail as i did not really

study well for it.Other subjects are just average as usual.

Another matter is that,my parents met up with baby,

and talked to him,they did not oppose our relationship,just that

we have to help each other in our studies.But for me i just

need to pass my english and that's the biggest problem

i have to face.I keep thinking about how to improve my

english and i seems to get no way out of this problem....hiahz

anw 9 september is nearing....i need to study for both

my eoy and LCCI...this 2 are worst thing i have to struggle

for this year,got to get a cert. for LCCI level 2.According to my

mum,getting the cert. will be easier for me to at least find a simple

job out in the society.

There are something troubling me and i hope is easy to solved,

but it seem that it is not possible.So i jsut hope to get older by age and

have things done by myself and ......

2nd post of the day

2010-06-10T17:01:00.002+08:00

Can you name 30 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 30 people. No cheating!

1. Zheng yu
2. Liz Khoo
3. Kellie Kuah
4. Melissa Tan
5. Melissa Yeo
6. Shirlyn Lim
7. Shirleen Tan
8. Angela Lin
9. Lawrence Lin
10. Elaine Tham
11. Ivanna
12. Kathleen
13. Sean Chan
14. Jordan Seah
15. Noppatad
16. Agata
17. Vanessa
18. Alvin
19. Ying Ning
20. Tian Yu
21. Denise Lim
22. Kenwin
23. Darren Yeo
24. Sharon Yong
25. Joshua Chen
26. Lionel
27. Yi Wen
28. Lim Wei Yu
29. Tan Yun Yue
30. Kyle Ong

• How did you meet 10?
ever since i was born -.- my sis wad

• What would you do if you had never met 6?
I would not have fun and gone through the tough period at that time

• What would you do if 20 and 15 dated?
hahaha is impossible,they do not even know each other.

• If you could marry between 6 and 14 who will it be?
of course is Shirlyn!who want Jordan,haha,jk

• Did you ever like 9?
that is so nostalgic....

• Have you ever seen 4 cry?
Nah,she never cry -.-

• Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?
HAHAHAHA!!Melissa and Kathleen?lol,unless they are willing to be lesbians

• Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple?
er...no way -.- quarrel,maybe...

• Describe 8:
one of my lovely great friend i have in primary school

• Do you like 18?
hahaha,my "close" friend bah,haha

• Tell me something about 17:
a very cute and cheerful girl ^^

• What's 7's favorite colour?
er...am not sure >.<

• What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you?
haha,he alredy did it since 2 to 3 months ago,i think

• When was the last time you talked to number 15?
just??

• How do you think 19 feels about u?
HAHA IDK,missing me??

• What languages does 13 speak?
English and Chinese.

• Who is 2 going out with?:
HAHA,the beaver = brandan choo of course.

•What grade is 16 in?
Sec 3

• What is 5's favorite music?
eh....not sure

• Would you ever date 3?
HAHAHA,why not?

• Is 11 single?
yeah,she so innocent

• What is 22's last name?
er....haha,forgotten >.<

• Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 7?:
HAHA,why not?if possible...

• Where does 24 live?
hougang

• What do you think about 20?:
one of my best friend in primary school <3

• What is the best thing about 4?:
able to go out!!!!!!!

• Is 21 hard-working?
haha,think so bah!

• What would you like to tell 13 right now?
er....try your best to find your true one.

• How did i meet 23?
1E3,08 class

• What is the best and worst thing about 5?
Best:bring clever!!! Worst:not being to be able to go otu with me :@

• Are you going to know 3 forever?
hahaha,i want!!!!!!!

• How long have you known 26?
last year??

• Who is 24?
Sharon??

• Are you or did you ever date 28?
haha,yeah!!!

• Do you have a crush on 27?
NO WAY -.-

• Would you kiss 25?
NO!i got boyfriend le,ok -.-

• Have you hugged/kissed 22?
no way man!!!ew!!!!

• Is 29 your bff?
YES ^^

• What do you hate about 23?
always act cool adn ignore me :@

• What's your relationship with 30?
Friend

hearts ♥

2010-06-10T09:27:00.003+08:00

i have this sudden urge of hearts ♥
anw i hope i can pull through this terrible days i have....
there are events for me during the holidays,but most of them
i may not be able to go,and i really hate this,i have done
nothing wrong to be controlled this way.i am not a puppet.

Things are bad for me...

2010-06-02T12:28:00.005+08:00

hey people it has been a long time since i came to post about what is

going on with my lfie.not what i wanted though and have gotten worst

then expected,and i really dislike it.I can't do anything to change

for now,but sooner or later,there will be things that will make my

life great,like friends and thing to do with my boy ^^

We been together for 1 month + and will continue to last long (:

It's quite surprising cause i have never been together with one person

so long,and i am sure he is the right one for me.and I love him <3

Anw things that are unpleasant been making my emotionally down,

and sensative.And about friendships and things,i really do not know

what to do and things turn out to be what i wish that will never

happen.I want my old life back and will not be so greedy for

more then those things...

never to forget the moments we have been together....

questionaire

2010-05-10T14:00:00.003+08:00

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nope.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Erm, yesterday.

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
yeah. Its neat.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Chicken ??

DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Nope.

IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Duh! I'm cool \m/

DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
not sure...

DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
huh??

WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
I'd be scared to, but someday I'd like to get over that fear and just JUMP!

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
coco crunch.

DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
er...nope.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Yes,Physically but not emotionally.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
strawberry cheesecake from BEN'S AND JERRY.

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
er....nothing?

RED OR PINK?
Pink.

WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
erm, a lot of things.. but the first thing on the top of my head are my best friends

WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
not wearing shoes right now..

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
never eat anythign since morning!

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
hey,soul sister.

IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
erm, wow .. I can't really pick ...

FAVORITE SMELLS?
...

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My mother.

FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
badminton and basketball.

HAIR COLOR?
Black

EYE COLOR?
Dark Brown

DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Yeap

FAVORITE FOOD?
Pizza,Delecacies,Fries.

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy endings.

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Summer vacation/IP man.

WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
white

SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter ^^

HUGS OR KISSES?
Both.

FAVORITE DESSERT?
ICE CREAM

WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
my three boyfriends?

WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
I don't have a mouse pad.

WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
erm ......

FAVORITE SOUND?
Rain

ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
what is this?

WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Thailand

DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I don't know ...

WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Singapore

random quiz

2010-04-17T14:59:00.002+08:00

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
nope.

2. Smart?
anything

3. Preferred age?
older then me.

4. Preferred height?
taller then me.

5. How about sense of humor?
anything.

6. How about piercings?
i don't mind

7. Accepts you for who you are?
of course.

8. Pink hair?
hell no.

9. Mushy or no?
erm.....i don't mind

10. Thin or fat?
Regular

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
White-not being racist

12. Long hair or short hair?
short

13. Plastic or metal?
huh??

14. Smells good?
what you mean?

15. Smoker?
no.

16. Drinker?
nope.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
don't mind

18. Muscular?
anything

19. Plays piano?
anything

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
anything

21. Plays violin?
anything

22. Sings very good?
anything

23. Vain?
No.

24. With glasses?
don't mind

25. With braces?
don't mind

26. Shy type?
erm...anything

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Doesn't matter.

28. Active or passive?
i don't know what is passive - ps el fail

29. Tight or bomb?
huh?

30. Singer or dancer?
anything

31. stunner?
er....i don't mind

32. Hiphop?
anything

33. Earrings?
anything

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
No .

35. Dimples?
idm (:

36. Bookworm?
don't mind

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
er....idk

38. Playful?
average ..

39. Flirt?
Ewww....then goodbye

40. Serious?
don't mind but not too much

41. Campus crush?
the hell??

43. Painter?
anything

44. Religious?
No

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
average

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
don't mind

47. Speaks 20 language?
er...if he can

48. Loyal or faithful?
faithful

49. good kisser?
Only time will tell

50. loves children??
YES!

THINGS GUY WISH GIRLS KNEW

2010-04-16T17:35:00.002+08:00

THINGS GUY WISH GIRLS KNEW >.<

1. Guys are more emotional then you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-he… method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a *********-- Goodbye.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me." but if he said he doesnt want to talk about it, give him a day or 2 and he will come out

23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn’t mean he represents ALL of them.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs.

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts lol

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probaly still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

39.Usually (not all the time) it's the guys who have all the millions of girlfriends how treat you bad, most of the "less popular" guys will treat you better.

40.Sometime men appreciate the burden being taken off of them. If you like someone... tell them. Otherwise nothing ever materializes from your feelings.! Most guys like it when girls ask them out

41.99% of the time we didn’t mean to hurt you, so don't take everything we say seriously lol^^

42. Trust us, you are DEFINITELY not always right.If you are wrong just admit it, please.Believe it or not, but we are VERY forgiving

PISSED OD 100000~ TIMES

2010-04-06T20:01:00.002+08:00

AH~I HATE THOSE KPO PEOPLE TTM.SO DISGUSTING.
WHY PRY INTO PEOPLE PERSONAL LIFE AND TELL TO
THOSE THEY DID NOT EVEN INTEND TO TELL.FO.MY
DAY IS SPOILED BECAUSE OF YOU.NOW I CANNOT GO
HOME AND HAVE TO GO TO A PLACE I NEVER LIKE
GOING AND MAKE ME LOSE MY COM.BUT NEVERMIND.
LISTEN UP I GOT MY PHONE HERE WITH ME OK.WHAT
YOU TELL MY MOTHER ALSO WON'T MAKE ME IMPROVE
ON MY ENGLISH RIGHT.WHAT YOU DO ONLY MAKE ME
WANT TO DO THE EXACT OPPOSITE KAY.I KNOW YOUR
INTENTION,BUT NO THANKS.I HAVE THE WILL I WILL
DO IT EVEN IF YOU DON'T TELL.NOW SINCE YOU MAKE
WORST NO POINT OF ME TO MAKE IT RIGHT.

sports carnival ^^

2010-04-01T22:56:00.005+08:00

today is the sports carnival ^^ excited.haha

but over le la.lols.anw star the day as usual

just that our bags are lighter and homework

given are just worksheets,and do some filing

for the day (: than afternoon liz went with me

back to my house.and we change our clothes.

than went to tpy entertainment hub by cab.

than walk to the tpy stadium.then had,

we 3e3 girls almost got into the 3rd.but nvm

is alright that we did not get anything,cause

we know we tried out best in this race is

good enough.after that,i slack,eat,take photos

and sing songs.haha.

will post some phots ^^

is it the right decision this time?

2010-03-31T21:34:00.003+08:00

hey people,i am THAM EMILLE aka THAM but dun ever call me THAM EMILLY like some old guy.anw i always do not hesitate what i am going to do and what i never really think carefully.This is the first time i controlled myself and think carefully thought.and the solution came out.and i am happy about this but not satisfied.everything have their advantage and disadvantage,so this means that i have to accept it.

anw today poa i failed to memorise the w/e thingy.so copied 5 times and hand up to cher.than morning was quite pissed with mrs raj.she keep saying when that i never do than keep saying me,pin-point me.than she saw my work on the com than she was like: oh~ so you got do.
-.- than rest of the day went by and not feeling any better....than during chem.poor liz,shirlyn and naufal got to copy notes and etc so many times.how pain.ke lian their hand.than during 1.30 went to eat ice-cream with liz,saw bryant walk and chat with him.than went back to class had act and after that dun feel like gg guzheng so wanted to go out,but in the end i came home -.- sianz.

tommorrow is the sports carnival and i do not think i am excited about it.and planning to come home and change and then go TPY stadium..

but i think i am excited about fri ^^ gg out to watch movie and finally getting chips that zheng yu owe me -.-

just now was scolded by my dad T.T long story so not explaining.haha.dun say i evil cause i am kind.haha.kay.bb people will stop here for now

vanishing from this place

2010-03-30T22:08:00.003+08:00

I know that i am different from what you see me in school,I can be so optimistic and happy in school that no one can see and sadness in me...I will turn to be someone like a zombie, emotionless,getting emo,cutting myself,crying,getting myself to be busy over nothing,getting bored and do weird things,sleeping late,not eating well,and going crazy...
No one can see that i am not happy....even myself too...not until now,when it got worst than i realise.I cant save myself anymore not even change,cause i have live with it since primary school,i don't think anyone can help me too.
When i was young,i watch dramas and find those people who tend to end their life stupid and idiotic.But now i understand them.There are times where i want to end my life once and for all but i do not know why i could not.I want to cut myself but afraid that i would leave a scar for life.
When i cut myself i wish i get it done deeper and you will say good bye to me.Cause i never wish to be living in this world,i am just someone there to waste the air,space and even the facilities.
Now i do not even know what i want...

i will just end here for now...

love or hate my life?

2010-03-28T22:15:00.006+08:00

hey it have been a long while since i have to come and post about me and my unglam life.
i know in one's life there will always be ups and downs.but mine is too unfair and disgusting.
i hate them.if you gave my a normal life then dun make my ups and downs so terrible that
i can freaking kill myself on the spot alright.things have not been turning right this year.
they are not as nice as what have said in the horoscopes or whatever.

anw save money up to 30 bucks to buy bag but in the end when reach there the bag is
sold. :@ but i bought contacts lens.like finally!cause i dun wan wear the specs to school.
btw i love the song guzheng is playing.love it ttm.is the myth the song.

and i totally enjoy my life yesterday.love it ttm.and today abit freakish.but still quites ok
until at night.and i dun care to explainn further cause is complicated.i want to post some
pics of certain things but am too lazy to take them down and post it.really sorry.cause
now days am getting lazier and sleeping later.and taking naps in the evening/afternoon.

will go get a bathe now for some reasons.bb

moments and memories that are unexplainable and unforgotten

2010-03-20T11:11:00.002+08:00

it has been quite a long time since i have blog.
i have change in way,and that makes me different from last time.
but the things i'm still afraid of are the same but some things
have been added...

anw came back from thailand on wednesday night 10 pm + was
tired and i can't find any reason for it.cause i am suppose to be
energetic from this holiday.and i am happy as this holiday is the
first holiday whereby my family took plane to go overseas.bought
lots of things and shop lots of places and see lots of intresting things (:
but i am selfish and lazy to explain.haha.my sissy have posted
photos on facebook and that will do the explaining.haha (:

i will be happy from now onwards.thanks for people concerns.
i will look back and laugh at myself for being silly to cry over things,
that you will get over.

what is wrong to head on in my life?

2010-03-09T22:13:00.003+08:00

It has been already 1 week + and i am still hearing things about you.
not sure.....not sure......i really do not know what to say anything
anymore.....people worry about me being emo....and i feel bad cause
i just can't stop being emo.and that seeing him really can't make me
forget about those things....and seeing him,all my emotions are mixed
up and i be boomz.and seeing him make me want to cry....i really loved
you.I LOVE YOU!but i have to forget about it and go on with my life
but without facing you it will be easier.

HATE SC,MT,ET,LJH

2010-03-07T21:34:00.002+08:00

i hate SC,MT,ET,LJH.

SC is attitude prob.and like to make use of people.asshole
MT is a collective person.bastard!after the thing happen
change attitude towards me
ET is always treat me like a maid and then order me around
with no one around and then later for argue for sure
is say blah3
LJH is a fuckiest person i ever see.play game always like to
show off but cannot.for sure fail and make people really
pissed to be in the same group as him and play.TEAM?
hell no.try hitting the socket in the end cannot.and like
to snatch it somemore.bastard child.why must i have a
thing to do with you?fat ass.keep growing fat until die k.

hate today the worst day not really the worst but i fucking hate
today.only the part where i am with kathleen and ivanna at
tution centre (: love them,so cute!!!but i also love shirlyn,shirleen
and liz (:no worries i never forget you guys (:

ALICE IN THE WONDERLAND SUCK!

2010-03-07T05:10:00.002+08:00

just went to watch ALICE IN THE WONDERLAND.
and it is not really very nice as told!
it totally suck the hell up!waste half of my money.
anw bought 4 tickets when there is only 3 person
cause of some reason and it is a long story.so forget
about about me telling you.and so....first night with
no parents so slack around with my sissy until late
and i am still unable to sleep.and the timing of me
going to sleep is getting later and later.help me please.
let me get over it quickly and let me have a really long
nice rest.anw tmr got tution so got to turn in but i
cant sleep but i will try.

things around isn't really going well now days!

i miss you

2010-03-06T00:05:00.002+08:00

today not alot of things went well.and it makes my blood boil and getting pissed easily!
i want to rest...i can't sleep well...since that day...i did not have a good sleep...i am tired!i want to rest!anw passed my physic.and failed my chem!and for chem overall i fail by 4 marks!damn it!anw think i shocked ms tan cause of sean chan.ass he.attitude basturd.and than today....mind wasn't in school i think.than went to iluma(bugis) with liz,brandon,kellie,noppatad and some extra guy roy!and something happen on the way.the problem was on me and i don't feel like saying.anw went to eat.slack.and played arcade...i use kellie's red cross shirt and liz use kellie's home shirt....then we went to play DDR.and i am proud to say I IMPROVED!haha.and then liz n brandon went first.then roy took bus home.while kellie,noppa and me took taxi back to school.wait with kellie for her mum.
but my mum called so gtg first.

i want to forget you,i want to.but i can't.people tell me,tell me the way to forget him.
this things in my mind can't be erased.and it makes me cry the moment i think of them.
if i could i really don't want to release you.i want you to be by my side.i miss you.
i love you.i am just making up a smile,forcing a smile on my face.can't you see it?
it really hurts me.you don't seem to even bother about what happen.why?what you
feel for me was all for a moment?what you feel for me is all fake?

e-learning day -.- boring!

2010-03-04T21:01:00.008+08:00

go listen to this song (is nice ! ) : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BhPMsa6z5ak

Noppa showed me this video ans i find it intresting :)

anw today was a e-learning day.meaning everyone stay at home to use e-learning and do work
-.- and then did chem and open ph.than lazy open anymore.then went to mac to meet noppa then go kellie's house.i was suppose to go meet liz.and shirlyn + eddy suppose to come my house.but some things cropped up for me.so they can't come....in the end have to help noppa so i went with him.see i am a nice person (Y).then took taxi home.and on te com again but cannot open the ch and ss work.can't blame me.i tried so many times.still cannot open to do.

anw

want to stand up and be brave again.....

2010-03-02T00:05:00.002+08:00

why can't my life be like the stories on television,stories or even manga?
i love to have them?it makes me cry.....and it makes me think about you
too.today you gave a miss call....i tort something was going to happen
when you tell me you did it accidentally.....and that this morning seeing
you make me really want to cry....but i controlled myself....i do not know
why.....it is the first time i ever been sad about breaking up....and that we
known each other for one month and that we were together for less than
one month and this things actually happen on me?you don't even seem
affected.....you are getting supports of people as i broke up with you does
not mean you are the one is sad.but IT'S THE OTHER WAY ROUND....
i just......i dunno.i will just feel down anywhere i go suddenly.i want to stop
I WANT TO STOP!STAND UP AND BE BRAVE LIKE LAST TIME AGAIN!

sorry for my actions...

2010-02-25T22:31:00.003+08:00

I do not know what has happen....it wasn't until now.I really regretted my actions....I am sorry,I really am.I don't want this to happen this way.I really hate how you avoid me,not talking to me,not replying me just a simple question like:If i am your girlfriend...you make excuse to go away and not telling me 2 to 3 letter,yes or a no.You are the first one that makes me really sad in a period where you do things like that during our relationship.I have never felt that sad in others....I am afraid to lose you.....I do not want to lose you either.....I want you to be by my side,and last long together.I am really sorry.I will try to change...I know i am the worst girlfriend in the world...I am sorry.....

things going around...

2010-02-22T21:22:00.003+08:00

this song is intro by Liz.the girl damn chio.sexy!!!haha

receive this message from Liz (and it is freaking touching!!):

a girl and a guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle.

girl : slow down , I'm scared

guy : no, this is fun

girl: no it's not please slow down

guy : then tell me you love me and give me a hug

( the girl did so )

guy: can u take my helmet and put it on yourself, its really bothering me

the next day in the papers:'' a motorcycle crashed into a building due to brake failure. two people were in the crash. but only 1 survived.''

the truth was that halfway through the guy realized the brakes were not working, but he did not want the girl to know. so he had her hug him and tell him she love him 1 last time. then he had her put on his helmet so she would live, even if it meant he would die.

would guys really do that?

anw yesterday after tuition went home change and shirlyn came and bai nian.than went to her aunt house.than off to her house.in the car.they were playing lady gaga's CD....then when reach ate some snacks and so some beading work.shirlyn burn my heart for him...so in the end forget it....hiahz....then went to eat beef noodles.and my parents came to fetch me home.was suppose to go somewhere else.but it rained so no more....

today...in the morning something happen and i am lazy to elaborate....and so i was late for school...and then i have to go to SAW which is normal.than during 1.30 - 2 something happen.an Liz if you think i am in the wrong than i only can say sorry...and then after SAW wanted to take taxi to tampinese 1 to find Liz and some other people.but realise when i reach there it will be time for me to go home.so i can't go le...sorry...and was talking on the phone to Sean when the phone suddenly cut off.is cause my phone no money le....sad....so tmr i going to buy the top-up card!!! :@

and today have maths common test....think i did it fairly.but scared i won't pass..hiahz....and then the question 9 noone can answer.omfg!

anw :
Wish everyone luck for their common test.and pass with flying colours!!

anw yesterday's post was shirlyn post de!!!!and i may go to study for geog quiz later.MAY!!will stop here for now.bye people!miss me!haha

LOL.

2010-02-21T16:46:00.002+08:00

HIHIHI EMILLE LUV SHIRLYN SO SHE GOING HER HOUSE NAO. BB. ^^Y

happy birthday to everyone!every human!

2010-02-20T20:50:00.006+08:00

this remix is totally awesome!!!i listen to this remix dunno how many times le.rock on!!it makes me want to go clubbing!!!anw am alone at home now.and it is the first time this year i got the urge to go do homework...so dun wish anyone will disturb me later when i do half-way!!

anw happy birthday to everyone!!chinese people will understand why.

let's go high!

2010-02-20T15:23:00.002+08:00

am free to blog now.so i am here to blog...
yesterday got mc free from doing pe...than
liz and me slack.while we look at somebody's
handphone.glass of jar,full of hearts....hahaha
than had normal day.than went to hougang
to let liz buy contact lens.than went to fairprice
buy egg and onion.than went my house to
cook egg.liz did the cooking.while i was busy
bout things for the night....and lawrence and
bambang went home first.while liz stay until
5+.pei her to outside flag cab....and pack my
room for the night...and than i bathe.and people
start coming.then sean came first follow by
noppatad,liz,brandon and liz bro....dunno how
to spell his name.psps.than we play.slack.eat.
play songs and go high.drink....than brandon
left first.follow by liz and her bro.than sean
and nopp left at around 11.30+ cause sean's
mum called...than packed room and sleep.cause
of the medicine!!!!make me so tired!!! T.T

anw i scared the june holiday crash with our 1 month.
cause i be going overseas.... T.T

will end here.

random posting.

2010-02-18T17:30:00.002+08:00

it has been really a long time since i post....
anw many unhappy thing and happy things
that are happening around me....and somethings
that make me feel weird and uncomfortable
about.things i keep wondering what should i
do about....
anw chinese new year is here for 4-5 days le
and the red packet i got this year is less than
a 100.... T.T sad life.anw my grandma got into
hospital while i got a sorethroat.and more weird
sickness happen on me...anw i feel tired in
school everyday.....and almost fell asleep.
anw tmr my mum said i am able to invite friends
to our house.and i not sure who to ask...ask also
not really confirm...and of course i will ask him
if no one is coming than most probably i wont
ask anyone to come le...and i haven pack my
room yet....AH~and the stickers he help me
buy cannot be paste on cause my key-pad is too
small.dun believe i show you next time if got
the chance....anw i am confuse about somethings
and i dunno how to tell people cause.they are
so into it than i can't get out....and things are
so confusing that i can't explain.and i am not
going to tell ayonw.....hiahz.....

anw HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!

day that have to come by...

2010-02-08T17:36:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since i post...
many things happen...sad...happy
and about saturday....was that woke up at 6 prepare things
and took 58 to lorong chuan circle line and take to bartley.
suppose to meet lawrence.then went to the coffee shop and
talk find shirlyn....then went to school....after that whole we
was like gg around hougang and collect newspaper from pp
there...and my group was shirlyn,lawrence,bambang n
sri-hari...(sry if got sp)...anw when collecting one unit the
group of guys very cute leh!!!the keep saying the word
newspaper...cutedie!
anw sunday things happen and i was with lawrence!!
and to confirm to people.yes!we are indeed together!!
happy?anw am so happy bout it.but feels abit weird
think cause i am used to being single....but soon will
get use to it...and many thanks to my sissy!!!love ya!

quizes...

2010-01-30T23:55:00.002+08:00

1. When's the last time you ran?
hmm...yesterday for p.e

2. Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?
no!

3. What are you dreading right now?
sec 3 life

4. Do you celebrate 420?
huh?what is that? o.O

5. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night?
holidays yes! but school days nope. :X

6. If anyone came to your house on your "lazy days" what would ya'll do?
just do my own things...most probably sleep?

7. Who last grabbed your ass?
wtf.noone.unless the person is pervert!

8. Have you ever been on your school's track team?
Nope,cause my school does not even have a track team!

9. Do you own a pair of Converses?
er...anything

10. Did you copy and paste this survey?
yup!from wei yu's blog :D

11. Do you eat raw cookie dough?
no.for what?crazy?

12. Have you ever kicked a vending machine?
no.

13. Don't you hate it when the radio ruins good songs by playing them over and over?
YES! it totally makes the song so cliche!

14. Do you watch Trading Spaces?
er...no...never heard of it before also

14. How do you eat oreos?
eat the cream,then eat the biscuit...

15. Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone?
no.who can i wait for?

16. Are you cocky?
dunno

17. Could you live without a computer?
no not even my phone!

18. Do you wear your shoes in the house?
Nope!

19. Who or what sleeps with you?
my monkey(from noppa ^^),a bolster,3 pillows,2 blankets.

20. At what age did you find out that Santa wasn't real?
dunno.i dun think i believe it in the first place...

21. How many phones, house phones and cell phones are in your house?
IDK! think over 10??

22. What do you do when you're sad?
depends...maybe cry or call someone...

23. Who would you call first if you won the lottery?
i probably wont buy lottery cause i don't like!

24. What jewellery are you wearing?
nothing...

25. Is anyone on your bad side now?
yes!

26. What's the first thing you do when you get online?
log on to msn and check out fb

27. Do you watch Grey's Anatomy?
??

28. How do most people spell your name?
emillie,emily

29. Would you wear a boy/girlfriends clothes?
maybe but probably no. haha.

30. What are you doing tomorrow?
usual things on sunday?

31. Is Justin Timberlake becoming the next Michael Jackson?
i dont bother.

32. Favorite name for a girl?
haha. i like lots of names! :D

33. Favorite name for a boy?
i think shawn isn't bad

33. Will you keep your last name when you get married?
HAHA.idk

34. When was the last time you left your house?
around 5pm?

35. Do you return your cart?
i have to.

36. Do you have a dishwasher?
no!hiahz....

37. What noise do you hear?
ntg?wind from the fan?

38. Would you survive in prison?
why would i be there in the first place?

39. Who is the youngest in your family?
me.

40. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, who would most likely overpack?
idk

41. Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
nope, my name is totally unique.

42. What's the last thing you purchased?
a 128 top-up card for lawrence??

43. Do your siblings ever pay for stuff for you?
yup.but i have to return money to her!

44. Ever been to Georgia (the state)?
Noo...

45. What brand is your digital camera?
i dont own a digital camera.

46. Do you watch movies with your parents?
sometimes!

47. What song best describes your life right now?
breatheless-shayne ward

48. Do you get your hair cut every month?
nope.

49. Do you go online everyday?
yup haha.

50. Will you pass this survey on to 5 people?
o.O idk?

which day is it?

2010-01-29T23:22:00.002+08:00

i am not sure if i can judge today is a good or bad day...
am speechless for somethings that happen and i am
fine with somethings that happen too...

today.was alright.is just that never hand-up the
chinese compo yesterday.then lazy to do today also....
for p.e today did running.i was lucky.1second before the
time given.(Y)then was fine for the followings...just feel
tired for the day...like almost fell asleep?skipped cca.
i am getting lazy to go gz.and i am happy am not chosen
for the performance thingy...then slack until 5+ and later
around school and in school...bored to tears...

anw knew a shockig news from someone.and its OMFG
disgusting...does soemone ask you die then you go die?
no right.then why when she force you,you have to do it?
digusting to hell.do not ever come close to me okay.i
don't believe someone will just admit something digusting
like this...

anw gtg.bbs.miss me kays

2010-01-27T23:34:00.003+08:00

hey...came to blog...
the china pp come today le.than we the go dalian students
and councillor(sry for sp) are suppose to pei damn.god dammit..
but it is a good thing...cause everytime they come they can
always go until very late...
anw today in school something happen.and i was freaking
angry when i should not be dunno why.shit him anw.sad life for
me man...hiahz...then am gonna post a funny thing:

It goes like this:
-which mountain are we racing to?
-witch mountain.
-yeah,which mountain are we racing to?
-witch mountain!
-that's what i said!which mountain!?
-witch goddam mountain!
-WHICH FUCKING MOUNTAIN?
-WRESTLING'S FAKE!!!

think i realise why i am behaving this way

2010-01-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

Saw zoey's blog and i totally agree to it...
seeing couples around especially your friends you will have
this weird feeling,maybe a feeling of jealous,and you wish
it happens on you...but you scared the relationship does
not goes well like the past relationships...it just feel so
uncomfortable...readin her post think it expressed my feelings
and now i do feel better than before reading her post...
things around are so common,but to me is complicated cause
i want to run away from them but not facing them...does
starting anew be better or just continue from where i am now?

2010-01-25T20:09:00.003+08:00

come to post le....
my mind is filled with so many things...
sadness.happiness.curious.angry.pissed.feel depressed.feel lonely.
this things always make up my loneliness....am i suppose to change
myself or stay who i am currently?or be like last time...cause at
least last i will feel better of who i am...but now i am someone
who really want to cry my heart out.but i can't cause the feeling is
so deep that i can't even cry out anymore...why?why must i be the
one to have all this?can't there be anyone there for me?friends
around me go in pairs while the teasing they i am able to look
that i do not need a companion but i really want to have one...
i am not despo but i just feel lonely.i need people to chat with
me and fill my time not to make me think so much depressing things.
but i don't think there are any...so i will continue being this...
being sad,happy-rubbish(faking),curious,angry,pissed,depressed,lonely.

bb.will be dead for awhile...
or maybe forever...bye forever

make me waste my time!asshole

2010-01-24T20:45:00.002+08:00

my day was going so well until this person.puropsely waste my time.
you know well who are you.shit it.everytime i want to rush to do something
someone will always waste my time.eg.i like busy doing something
than the person was like watching tele,read magazine,talking on phone
+ its not a important phone call.then when i am done with my things.
i want to go bathe.then person will purposely be a few seconds early
then me say want to go.shit you.talking rubbish on the phone dun go
bathe must ait until i want to bathe then rush my work out and you
purposely fight with me.then somemore the others will help to back the
person up.FUCK!ccb la,must always do this to me when i rushing is it?
don't force me do the same thing to you whe you are rushing as well.
until that time do not blame me for being heartless.i gave you chance
by telling you i need to rush yet you insist so you will know the result.
taste back what you had done to me.wish you read this!

freaky night!

2010-01-23T17:03:00.003+08:00

Random posting.
Something happen last night and i don't want it to happen again!!

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: water
2. Last phone call: sean chan/lawrence
3. Last text message: sean chan/lawrence
4. Last song you listened to: nobody
5. Last time you cried: forgotten

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yes.
7. Been cheated on: yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: is force counted?if yes i will regret.
9. Lost someone special: no
10. Been depressed: like duhh
11. Been drunk and threw up: no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. black
13. white
14. pink

LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: like duhh so obvious i did
16. Fallen out of love: no
17. Laughed until you cried: lots of times.but not truthfully laugh
18. Met someone who changed you: totally
19. Found out who your true friends were: no!
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yes
21. Kissed anyone of your friend's: no of course not
22. Do you have crush on anyone anyone now: not sure...
23. How many kids do you want to have: nvr thought of it
24. Do you have any pets: no
25. Do you want to change your name: maybe...dunno
26. What did you do for your last birthday: went to liz father hotel...and play arcade
27. What time did you wake up today: 9.15am?
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: messaging people's
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: life to be happier!
30. Last time you saw your Mother: just now
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: a chio me
32. What are you listening to right now: nth
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: don't have friend that name tom
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing.
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook , Blogs, Hotmail .
36. Whats your real name: Emille Tham
37. Nicknames: a-ma-li
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac sign: libra
40. Male or female?: female!! -.-"
41. Elementary?: Nanyang Primary
42. Middle School?: Bartley Secondary
43. High school/college?: i haven even graduate from secondary yet!!
44. Hair colour: Black
45. Long or short: shoulder length
46. Height: aroound 158??
47. Does anyone have crush on you?: er....dunno
48: What do you like about yourself?: my soft-heart.(mentally hor)
49. Piercings: 2.but want to get one more...
50. Tattoos: dun have.and don't want to have.very pain de
51. Righty or lefty: huh?

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: don't curse me!!
53. First piercing: ya
54. First best friend: like so long ago...
55. First sport you joined: forget le.
56. First vacation: think is cruise when was a baby.mum told me and got pic to prove
58. First pair of trainers: primary 6 cause of camp?

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: eat le.
60. Drinking: 1 and half hours ago
61. I'm about to: use facebook
62. Listening to: music
63. Waiting on: messages

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: ya i want kids.but haven really think until very far..
65. Get Married?: not sure
66. Career?: or course

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: younger.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both can?
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: don't even want any.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: wthell.of course not
77. Drank hard liquor: no
78. Lost glasses/contacts: no
79. Sex on first date: NO WAY.
80. Broken someone's heart: dunno
82. Been arrested: NO
83. Turned someone down: dunno?
84. Cried when someone died: Of Coz
85. Fallen for a friend?: ya.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: sometimes
87. Miracles: dunno
88. Love at first sight: maybe?
89. Heaven: dunno
90. Santa Claus: HELL NO
91. Kiss on the first date: never
92. Angels: dunno.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: NO
95. Did you sing today?: yeah
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: baby or kindergarten
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: the day i am still innocent
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: no.why should i?
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: totally.

2010-01-20T22:52:00.003+08:00

hey,I have come to post about the day...It was not bad...
idk...just normal lesson....then morning my eyes abit swollen from sleep...
can't put the contact lens in...sad...then act was chemistry..did some experiment and form crystals...me and shirlyn group and it wasn't so bad.at least we have nice crystals...went back to class and realise something called flirt happen the whole day.canteen,corridoor n class.disgusting...then went gz late with liz scolded by lu lao shi then she threaten me.freak!!and took 2 gz out to tiao but can't tiao hao.shit man.lousy gz...then the brandon,randy,and cedric came...saw jordan and kenwin below playing lion dance.lol.saw their frindge chopped off.hahahas.funny die.then mum came brought me to go eat...and reached home play com until now...
bwg already will end here.(:

2010-01-19T19:41:00.004+08:00

Now i realise as we grow older the world around us is getting more difficult to understand and it is getting more confusing cause we have to fight...I don't understand...I am tired of this things... I do not believe the innocent me is getting worst...even i do not recognise myself...I wish i was back to the past and be myself...the one that does not even know the vulgar words...like fuck...I also want to stop being so competitive with others...i just want to be like last time...alone and getting bullied by others cause at least i would not feel so bad like now...and to me maybe now my room,my home is the only place i can hide in and be back myself not wanting to get worst and competitive to fight...I purely wanted to be friends with everyone...even guys.cause i thought having guys friends and talking to them are just purely friends....and i thought getting older your mind will be more mature...but that is not what others see.they think you flirt...and they think you are snatching you boyfriend....hiah...why does a purely become your friend turns into you are flirting??but sometimes if you go overboard i do agree that the person is really flirting...and why make use of others?I hate and do not want to be with people who just purely wants to make use of me or even others....don't you find yourself cheapskate?I can't tolerate anymore of this things, the messy world...I just hope i would not go crazy one day with all this things happening...

2010-01-18T19:27:00.005+08:00

It's been a long time since i had post....

15-1-10(friday):
A usual day but during pe.we had to take our height and weight.freak that machine.anwhow measure.make me become shorter than audrea.can't we use the old method?why must use the anyhow machine?ok whatever....then after school went to shirlyn's house again...this was the 2nd time....and share the chicken rice with liz.then took taxi back to school.then shirlyn went for her ncc while me and liz went back to class and slack.until 2.45 then go guzheng.always no seat.shit them.budget some more i don't go lor.not my lost.i can dun need the points.i can kao myself to a poly.anw me,liz and abigail(sry 4 sp)slack outside,not gg gz until we saw lu lao shi.then end at 5...and my father came to pick me up.waite for him for 20 mins....

This are some photos i took that day...

16-1-10(saturday):
morning woke up and went to mrt station to wait for sean...we went to collect my uniform...and then something happen...he went home while i went to serangoon garden bought food for my uncle and sis.then walked home...

17-1-10(sunday):
went to tuition...was funny and not bad.listen to music in class and was surprised why the cher never say anything...and i played with my fried pooh.and took photo of it's damn tiy~so cute lorh!!

18-1-10(today!!~lolz):
assembly me,liz and shirlyn talk about all random things...was all funny...all was alright for the day...and recess i wore contact lenses.was abit giddy see things like abit unclear...nvm will soon get use to it...then had english act..the cher crazy one lorh!!dun feel like talking about her...and then after that.me,shirlyn,liz n brandon walked to bartley cc(circle line) and they took to serangoon while i took to lorong chuan.took bus 58 home.it was just one stop away.but that one stop away was freaking far...so can't blame me...and this was for the day...

to yunyue:cheer up girl.it will soon be alright.try to look forward.there are people aroung you concern about you.there will also be friends to stand by next to you.must cheer up.alright? :)

bowling pro than sean!!

2010-01-14T15:52:00.003+08:00

Came to post for the "perfect" day.Anw today school was a half-day school.but still very budget.Cause it is just half-day!!!can't they give a full day?budget school means budget school.the toilet fan spoil also dun wan fix!morning went to canteen.help shirlyn do the graph the sean so extra.ask me help him do.luckily when i do half-way they go off the light..hahas... then physics was the first lesson.i forget to bring my textbook.wtf stand up for 2 periods(1hr).kay wadever.next was chinese.did my compo.lucky me.haha.do bit by bit.clever rite?jk. then the last lesson was maths.then the ms tay punish four guys-Naufal,Wee gin,Jing yi,Zheng yu.then say what lesson end at 10.45!!wthell was this year the teacher all lik to extend the time 15 min after their lesson or something?i dun get it lorh.then went to hougang with shirlyn n liz. liz went off once we reach ther.shirlyn and i went to get my contact lens.then went to eat at food-court.then went to kovan to find sean,pei yen,pamela n lyn(i'm sorry if got spelling erro).went to play bowling.shirlyn never play.then the sean so thick skin say he for sure/will win me!! In the end is i the winner lorh.as in i was the highest of all.at first i tort is pei yen first then dunno why become me.after that jiu come home.use com.bathe.then later have tuition...

will end here.byes!!

FCUK

2010-01-13T21:10:00.003+08:00

kay...just put the photo for fun...

erm came to post for the day...

english we wrote about our new's year resolutions.

then poa...haha still remember things...

chem we group in 4.Shirlyn,Darren,Naufal,Navin.

quarrel with the darren.he so on purpose lorh!

then late for mtl 15 min than the guan

lao shi say need stay until 1.45....lame.

then had act....things happen....

anw group with shirlyn than did experiment

together... :)then went back class until

3.40+ then went to guzheng.No

guzheng was available.so me and liz sat down

on the floor do homework.then went for

ice-cream.and so THANKS SHAO YE

FOR TREATING ME!!then went back to

guzheng room.suddenly so many

sits.sat infront of teacher...play until 6.15 jius go le.

will end here for know.k thanks bye!!

rain rain go away,come again another day~lolz

2010-01-12T16:44:00.003+08:00

Today wasn't so bad...except that my phone batt very low.Didn't use much of it.so was still alright.had maths as first lesson.had mental sums.and i did not do so badly.I can proudly say i have 7/8...then homework i was alright.and gotten back last weeks work.one wrong.awww.and found that my hand writing got worst after the holidays.AH~next lesson was poa.use phone in class.then the sean chan mali chan purposely sabbo me.wthack.after recess found some people was so hyper.than was geog.copy the work cause i dunno how to do.then was all wrong..lol.then had eglish after on.was so boring....some more make noppa fall asleep.haha.then the mrs raj ah purposely let us out late.hack.then waited long for the brandon.then went to take taxi to liz aunt house and then me n noppa went to eat at the food court.THE FOOD IS NICE OKAY!!NOPPA SAY SO TOO!(wanted to eat frolick but noppa dun wan)kay after eating.we both walk diff ways home.i was walking up.and it started raining.FREAK!I DON'T HAVE UMBRELLA OKAY!then i ran all the way back home.was wet!!and my poa the top become wet the next time for sure very ugly one.kay wadever....just wish i dun fall sick kay.bye!!

DON'T TOUCH ME! LOLZ

2010-01-11T17:18:00.002+08:00

haha.not bad right this video??lolz.anw today was not bad.except about my hair thingy.my frindge to little le.AH~anw people look at me weirdly but after some time is okay le la.REMIND ME NEXT TIME:NOT TO CUT BANGS!!today the assembly the n=mr chin never say about our guzheng....wthell?our guzheng done you proud okay?then rest of the day was okay.than i was not suppose to stay back for the maths.but in the end i still went for it.was glad with my improvements.it was totally cool and great!!!didn't have any mistakes.was all alright and had it done fast!!then bought my geog but not enough money later.hell!then after that went to kovan.and between that.something happen....and only me,kellie,noppa,luqman n keith know....hiahz....i am just so sorry if it's my fault.then went to popular.and then went to eat at mac.and noopa GAVE me 10 to take taxi.or do i have to return him??then i left my books with him....omg....then he say return me tom.no no no!unless you help me do homework.haha.anw MAYBE he be passing it to me tonight or something...

I am confuse!!!

2010-01-09T22:44:00.003+08:00

after many thoughts.I am still confuse.I am afraid that i may have fall for you again.I really scared of expressing it.N later i find myself doing the wrong decision.I just do not understand how i feel?It's does not feel the same for the other.It's just so different.I need to know how you feel.I want to know if i could tell you.I am just speechless now.I wish that i can dont face you.Don't hear your voice.

cca open house... + wing yin's birthday :D

2010-01-09T20:30:00.003+08:00

first of all:HAPPY BIRTHDAY WING YIN(was actually for yesterday)

anw yesterday went with shirlyn n liz to syafiqah's house have lunch then we all went back to school together.and had guzheng until 5+ and then my father came and fetch me...then it's all for the day...

today was CCA open house.It doesn't seem so bad except something happen.
N was abit pissed with the person.anw today CCA open house our guzheng is very excited cause our guzheng finally got hope.FINALLY.cause got one sec 1 is a 7th grader from outside.WTF.and this year we hada easier time than last year.cause this time we got more sign up's.. :D and liz and i went off early.we + brandon went to mac.me and liz ate mad flurry.then they went off to brandon house.while i went to find sean.and i waited for him 30 minutes.FUCKER RITE?then i walk back to school to find shirlyn while the sean so mafan take taxi to go find us.cause we went to find the eddy and zoey...then me,shirlyn,sean n eddy took taxi to bugis.then eddy go find her girlfriend.while me,shirlyn n sean went to illuma watch movie.only remember vampire then behind i forget le..haha.then was abit disgusting.then i feel cold also.kay wadever.then dunno is shirlyn or sean drop the popcorn on the floor.left half.lolz.after watching we went to shop.then went to bugis street.shop half-way my mum called so.we went home.walked one big round just to get out of the place.then shirlyn took 80 go home.me and sean took mrt.but different one!!
then i went my grandma house for dinner and here i am at home now.using com.today took some photos but then cant send to my com so forget it.

the best proof of love is trust.

2010-01-07T22:42:00.002+08:00

The Best Proof Of Love Is Trust

had school as per normal.and after school.talk to noppa,

luqman,wee gin,sumesh,keith,liz n brandon outside school.

all do not know where to head off after school.

Discuss about things.and was about move off.

Then something happen and the cycle repeats.

In the end.Me,sumesh and keith went to

Serangoon graden.Went to one of the club there.

Keith was the member.Went in but didn't do anything...

all keith's fault.haha joking.then around going 4 they

send me home.then they go home le.What gentleman's

are they.lol.thanks anyway.thenat night had tuition.

Was very bored.keep doing the work very fast.then

cher like abit pissed off cause i do very fast.haha.sorry.

Then in class i message Sean n ltr keith also.

Anw thanks sean for "accompanying" me.

Will end here for now. cheers everyone (:

3rd day of schoolz

2010-01-06T20:17:00.003+08:00

yesterday went to city square with shirlyn,liz.we went to popular buy some things.and went up and find seoul garden.then brandon came to find liz...and we found the place.then me and shirlyn went in to eat.then not long after liz went off le.of course with brandon.then i ate alot.we went home after that.then when i got off the train i saw my mum.omg.lucky she didn't see me.reached home alrdy.but she haven....lolz

today during assembly vp ask me to clip up my fringe.not fringe lor.i accidentally let part of my hair to be my fringe.then i re-tie...and EL was the first lesson.as usual very sian.the whole 3 lesson do writing...lame.and then had poa.laugh to die.hahaz.then ms tay tell me about the poa and dnt thing.then recess....then was mr fu's lesson.not bad.dunno he could talk so much to make time fly.haha.and then had chinese.wad in band 2.then guan lao shi was the cher...and first time noe NA people can study what Express study...kay.wadever.idc.then went to hougang mall.took bus saw kenwin.suck.wadever.went to find spray for shirlyn.and found one.then went to food-court and eat.waste food again...can't blame me.then now like no money.then took taxi back to school for gizheng.change cher again.wth!!then cant escape cause the cher eyes very sharp.then learn new song.and ended at 6.20

will end here for now

1st day of school

2010-01-04T19:36:00.002+08:00

Today wasn't so bad after all.

It was all fine.Except for the shoe that

cause my leg to have blister....pain...

Anw today when i reach school.Just nice

he also get down from his car.wadever.dun

wan talk much about him.Then find shirlyn

n wing yin.walk around canteen.Suppose

to go up to class.But got vp around.Wing yin

hide in the toilet.then the vp ask me and

shirlyn to go up first.Then finally settle in

the class....blah3 and mrs raj(AFT)

mr Fu(FT) came in.Did alot of things.

Recess time...never eat.only shirlyn ate.

went up to hall for a talk by mr rangan.

went back to class.mrs raj tell us what to

bring and things.then after school.

me,shirlyn,liz n brandon went to hougang.

just nice saw my pri friend(Denise)...then had

pasta mania for lunch.bought some chicken

then shirlyn go buy dye.then went back to eat.

liz n brandon went off first.left me and

shirlyn.we took taxi.she drop me off at

kovan.i took bus home and she took

the taxi back.and later she call me say she

rush home for nothing.cause the mother

not at home yet.hahas

kay recieve my poa mock exam...sian dun

feel like doing siol...have to do pass to

my mum than scan back to cher...

will end here.bye :)